- I feel like I’m not doing enough for my students. I have umpteen million meetings, paperwork to document, essays to write for my masters class, going through an AP class for the first time, and preparing for upcoming assessments (PSAT, SAT, etc.) I am an 8th year teacher who is drowning like a 1st year. I can deal with the stress, but not the guilt that I am letting my students down.
- I am feeling insecure. I am very much aware the I have several students that are much smarter than I am, and not just because they’re math and science geniuses and I nearly failed those courses in high school, but in general, they are smarter than I am. In the past when I needed to bulk up on my knowledge, I would research, research, research. However, this is not as easy as it used to be; See Point 1
- I want to be better because I know where I am failing. Being aware of what your deficits are is both a positive and a negative. Right now I am in Sulk Mode, and I do see the light at the end of tunnel. Within a few hours, I will be out and filled full of a jolt of inspiration and empowerment to go forth and be a better version of myself.
It was very difficult for me to admit these things. I have always been a stoic person, believing that if you know what you need to do to improve, you just do it; “there’s no crying in baseball” mentality. I don’t want to appear to be weak or pathetic. And maybe admitting these feelings makes me strong; owning my issues and not resting and complaining isn’t easy. So maybe I should stop emotionally beating myself up about it. I’m not a victim. Grab ahold of your problem and deal with it!